I have been thinking more about the comfort zone I've been hiding in these days, and getting all these signs from the universe that whatever I wanted to be in life, I would have to live according to my own terms and force myself out of familiarity. I could feel myself falling into old habits when I went to Halifax, and I didn't like that. . I felt my behavior going from adventurous to seeking the familiar with token deviations outside, but still mindful of limitations, and trying to latch onto some form of security even if it was not for me.
I decided this past weekend to out myself on Facebook completely. No negative blowback from what I've seen, and some of the biggest support I've seen so far has come from a few of the more right wing friends. I also put a Twitter status about how I outed myself, but I was a little more cavalier about my sexuality on there, even though my stream is public.
I'm interested in writing, and I'm interested in doing more for the GLBT community. The longer I stayed in the closet, the longer I was putting off living my life and being able to write completely truthfully.
I still have not told my parents yet. I'm toying with trying to come out before my birthday, but I'm also thinking it might be wiser to get settled into a new life first before doing it. It is for this reason I'm not fully out on my public, signed blog, but I have a feeling that once I'm out to them, I will be out there as well.
I just hope they find out on my terms and I'm not outed.
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I don't know if this will make any difference, but, last October, I wrote a post about what not to do when you come out. One was not to come out using social media before coming out to loved ones in person.
Since you've already used social media, the only thing I can suggest is to come out to your loved ones (i.e.: your parents) as soon as possible, before they find out in a less than personal way, which could make things more difficult for you.
I hope everything goes well. You will feel such a sense of relief after it's done. Good luck.
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