Libido

I didn't admit to myself I liked men until I was 23 but now that I have, I'm still amazed how strong my sexual interest in them is. Actually, to be honest, I don't think I've had such intense sexual feelings in general until I let myself act on my homosexual urges. For those who took a little while to admit to themselves they were gay, is this a common thing?

Whenever I was interested in a woman in college or before it actually seemed more like an abstract interest after a certain point, like I was actually more interested in the concept of a girlfriend and the social implications of being with someone than anything else. But the sexual aspect really doesn't excite me that much with a woman.

Living at home isn't particularly conducive for me to actually act on my desires, though. Not being out to my parents is one thing, but these are Christian "sex before marriage is bad" parents who don't really spend too much time away from home. Whenever I can get to a city and can stay the night, I want to hit up a gay bar. I am still a bit choosy and won't leave with anyone particularly old or creepy but when you get to a certain point, you need release.